This project is a reflection of growing up Catholic, my self-formation, and its decline. It grapples with who I have become in relation to the faith on which I was built but is now unstable.
Growth and conversation lead me to newly formed questions and curiosities that have risen and caused internal and external divisions.
These photos are my attempts to navigate the differences between the iconographic and the spontaneous, the personal and the communal, and the religious and the spiritual. There exists a struggle to reconstruct and recontextualize memories which makes it difficult to maintain a relationship.
The lack of community I now experience paired with current Church corruption has caused me to abandon practicing rather than try to adapt. The images question a foreign emptiness in places and in times of old familiarity. The desire for explanations is paired with stagnancy of not wanting to meditate in a place of doubt, of an in-between place where I no longer belong but am also not ostracized.
